The first post

I don't know why I am starting another blog. I should just update Chloe's Caring Bridge more often, but sometimes it hurts to go there. I know that Cancer never leaves my mind, something always inevitably reminds me...when I post there, I feel hit in the face with it. Of course I will continue to update there, because I know that's the only way some people follow us, but I find it harder and harder to post there after every clinic visit. The reason I felt inspired to post today, is that while visiting my friend Renee's always inspiring and usually entertaining blog http://www.myspecialks.com/ I read that a beautiful little Cancer Warrior, an amazing little girl named Lois, who happened to also have Down Syndrome, lost her battle today. Now I don't know this family, I have never read their blog. But the minute I saw her beautiful little face, my heart just fell to the bottom of my stomach and I felt sick, and weak. I know life isn't fair...I get that already...I have lived it. But sometimes I just want to scream it out! Why??? Why this one? I know there aren't any answers, but I just feel so helpless. My heart aches for this family and I can't, and don't want to imagine that kind of pain. I am grateful for my kids, I am so eternally grateful that they are healthy now and that they spent the day chasing each other around and watching Doctor Who. I don't even know what to say, I don't have any words. I just wanted to say, something. Just put it out there in the universe, that this family just had its world changed forever. Just ask anyone that will ever read this, to think of them, send good thoughts, healing vibes, pray for them...whatever you do...whatever your belief system is. Hold them up in light.http://thedailylois.blogspot.com/